Celebrate Every Win!

I woke up this morning and realized I felt no pain. I began crying, overwhelmed with gratitude. I remember two years ago when I got home from the convalescent after my amputation. It took everything I had to go to the kitchen and back. If I took a shower, it was a great day! The two years before my amputation I basically lived in the hospital or in a convalescent. Surgery after surgery.
This morning I allowed myself to truly experience the moment, this day free of pain. Yesterday I went to pilates and out with a friend. Today, I cleaned my home and had lunch with a friend. It is so important to allow ourself to see the progress. I have reached a milestone. So many time we arrive and do not even realize it because there is always the next milestone. In two years I have come so far. I got here by taking one step at a time. Conquering one thing at a time. adding one healthy habit at a time.
Living with chronic pain, it is even more important that we celebrate the little things and the big things. It is easy to forget how far we have come when we are trying to get over another hurtle. Two years ago, I set an intention to take control of my mind. Changing my thoughts, changing my story.
Today was the manifestation of that work. Tomorrow, I wake up and I continue to fight.
Why? Because, its worth it!
Why? Because I am going to walk again!


Consistency is the key to healing! Whatever new practice I am learning about, or implementing into my healthy habits must be done consistently. I love the saying:” Do not quit before the miracle!” In the beginning of my healing journey I remember moving from thing to thing and thinking:” None of this is working”. So, after many months of frustration and struggling with wanting to just give up I read something by Deepak Chopra that changed my life. When dealing with holistic modalities and practices they work on the core of the problem. They don’t quick fix your symptoms. For example, when I began cooking and eating to decrease chronic inflammation in my body ( which is associated with many diseases) it took more than 30 days for me to really start experiencing the feeling of relief. Being in pain sucks, and I know we want to get relief NOW, but all the now remedies I ever came across have long term side effects that can damage our bodies and minds. When you start healing from a holistic remedy, your body and mind are actually healing, because it is healing you at a cellular level! Pain is our body communicating with us; “HELP, SOMETHINGS WRONG, HELLO, DO SOMETHING!” Therefore it does not make sense to just numb the bodies warning system.
Another example is meditation or visualization-It took Joe Dispenza five years to heal his back. But do not be discouraged, once you begin feeling the results a little it gets better from there! SO it is worth the work.
I started with one practice and then added another and so on.
Even if it is as small as starting to eats broccoli sprouts every day. START SOMEWHERE or you will never get anywhere.
Pick something today, once that has become a habit, then add something else. If it is meditation or visualization start with 2 minutes and then add a minute at a time. IT WORKS!

Pivot and change your story

The last ten days I woke up in excruciating pain. I thought about all the days my pain has taken away from me. So I made a decision on each of those days that today would not be another one. I pushed myself up out of bed. I changed my mindset from sadness to positivity. I took my dog out for a walk, said a prayer and came in and meditated using a new healing visualization meditation. I doubled my dose of my CBD tincture, and lied down on my Biomat for 20 minutes.I then soaked in the tub with one of my CBD bath bombs and extra epson salt. After about an hour I realized I was no longer in horrible pain. I called my friend and he drove me to the beach where I put my foot in the sand and got to watch the waves and breath the fresh air. Now, I am experience overflowing gratitude. 2 years ago my pain level was so bad I was not able to have this option. The reason why I am sharing this is because once you have lived years with chronic pain it can be extremely hard to switch gears and begin taking your life back. This can definitely be exhausting on days. Those days I allow myself to cry and pamper myself at home. I know chronic pain sucks! I hope this helps someone get up and make a great day. There are days we can pivot and create a new experience and there are days we must just accept. You can learn which days to get up and take back your life and be the best friend you’ve ever had.

Acceptance vs Fighting

One of the things I truly struggled with after my amputation was finding my balance.I had to learn that sometimes it was important to push myself and get up and “accomplish” somethings or embrace where my body was and allowing myself to be with my body and let it rest. What I learned was how important it is to push myself to learn how to become more self efficient, but also learn how to accept some limitations and listen to my body. There are days when thinking positive and challenging yourself turns into an expectation instead of a desire. This is when I need to stop, cry, and allow myself to be exactly where I am in that moment. It gets exhausting when your whole life is making appointments, seeing doctors, fighting for your insurance, and living with pain every day. This is when I knew that I must have things that I do that have nothing to do with “getting better”,healing…..Because it’s too draining to live with this consistent energy of “I want to heal’, i want to feel better”. I needed days to just enjoy, live, and be grateful of where I am now!
So don’t miss living because you are always trying to get somewhere that you are not. Be here now!

Inflammation cont…

Did you know that when your inflammation levels get higher, so does your risk for disease? Chronic inflammation is the misfiring of the immune system keeping your body in constant high alert. When our body is in high alert is also release cortisol which in turn creates more inflammation. This is why a quality CBD helps many different symptoms. Cbd can lower inflammation in the body, therefore supporting your body’s health.Studies are showing that chronic inflammation causes a lot of damage to the body and that most pain symptoms are because of inflammation. CBD helps the Endocannabinoid system help all the other systems communicate, therefore correcting any misfiring of messages. If you are suffering from pain or inflammation and would like to find a quality CBD feel free to message me.

Are you missing out?

One of the first classes they had you take in college in my day was Critical thinking. I find this funny. I want to challenge you today. Have you ever made a decision based on someone else’s experience or beliefs? Are you missing out? I want to give an example. I have this friend; when I was first introduced to him I was told by many a bunch of reasons I should not get to know him. Well. When it comes to people I have learned: HAVE YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE, and then decide. This person is now one of my best and dearest friends. He always shows up for me!
The day I realized that I was living life unsuccessfully, was the day I realized I did not know what I believed in. I literally sat down with pen and paper and went through my belief system to find out: I had NOT consciously chosen those beliefs and I did not even like them! Wow, powerful eye-opener! From then on I made a decision to have my own experience and make conscious choses. Next time you say no to something or make a judgement about something or someone, I want you to ask yourself: “Is this coming from my heart or is this some learned stuff that is not even mine!”
My life is shifting every day now for the better! I know amazing people, and I am involved with an amazing company that I would not have given the time of day to before.
I am healing more by using means and ways most conventional doctors would tell me are hogwash. Well, the proof is in the pudding! Whatever works and adds grace and exhilaration into my life, is what I will continue to chose!
Don’t miss out! Do your own research and your own thinking! Be your best friend!


On my healing journey I learned a lot about toxicity and detoxing the body. The less toxicity the better your body’s immune system and the better you feel! Do you know that American women put an average of 168 toxic chemical on their bodies a day? The average home contains 62 toxic chemicals.
Toxicity in the body can cause symptoms such as fatigue, irritability, lack of concentration, just to mention a few.
The first thing I did was detoxify my home by removing toxic cleaning supplies. Just doing that I felt better. Then I began detoxifying my diet! Buying organic food when possible and using healthy oils to cook. I get better and better at that still. It takes time to implement this. I began using non toxic creams, shampoos et… At the Chopra Center they would tell us:” If you wouldn’t eat it do not put it inside your body.”
Another huge area that many of us miss is emotional toxicity. It is very important that we metabolize and process our emotions! Exercise like yoga will help remove these toxic emotions out of our tissues!
And then lastly but just as important learning how to remove stress from our lives. We do have some control over that. We also can learn ways to metabolize stress so it doesn’t get to the point where is makes us sick. Did you know that stress alone can lower your immune system? When I was dealing with my cancer diagnosis one of the things I heard a lot was: “stress is a killer”.
This may all sound like a lot, but we can start somewhere. Bit by bit you will feel the results! It’s awesome!

Don’t Forget to Live

Living with chronic pain is draining. My life turned into dealing with doctor appointments after doctor appointments. Waking up with pain, going to bed with pain and the whole day was about how to manage my pain. What I realized through many years of this is that I was forgetting to live. I got so sick of waking up to just ” make it through another day”! This is when I realized I needed to find a reason to live again. I had to make a commitment to do something every week that had nothing to do with health or doctors. Whether it was reading a book for just reading a book or, Watching a funny movie or, going with a friend to drive along the beachside.
Or, is there anything I can do for another human being? Even if it is just to listen!
Yes, it is hard! your mind will tell you all the reasons you cannot do it, but I’m telling you you MUST!

Finding My Voice

I really wanted to share my process dealing with the doctors and medical professionals. I do not know what it was but in 2001 when this medical stuff all began doctors really intimidated me and mostly made me feel powerless. It took me years to learn how to take care of myself and ask for my needs in the hospital or doctor office environment. So many times I left an office feeling in a daze, confused, powerless, or angry. Or as soon as they left my hospital room all of my questions would come flooding back to me. There were so many years in which I felt as if what I was experiencing was of little concern to them.

I learned a few things:
1) Always take somebody with me whenever possible. 2) Write down all my questions on a piece of paper or on put them in my phone so I could look at it when they asked me :”Do you have any question”. 3)when they came into my hospital room at 5 am doing their rounds I recorded it in my phone. 4) the hardest one was speaking up no matter how the Dr talked to me or tried to intimidate me when speaking my truth.
5) And the most important of all: I WOULD LISTEN TO THEIR DIAGNOSIS, BUT NOT THEIR PROGNOSIS. In my many years now of listening to doctors try to tell me what was and was not possible, I have had the amazing opportunities to prove them WRONG. And that is where I am NOT powerless. I get to chose how I am going to live with their diagnosis and I get to chose to fight whether or not they tell me I will never walk again, or I can’t cure my liver, or there is no cure for this or that. Because every time I have chosen to fight and research other options I have ended winning!
Believe in yourself. Find your voice. Take your power back and use it all to heal. Do not allow your diagnosis to dictate your life, your heart, or your mind!

Finding What Works

My journey has been a long one! This year I tried different things and found some very helpful. I live with chronic Pain and I am constantly researching holistic( mind, body, and spirit) healing modalities. Coming from an Ayurvedic trained background I know that every single person is a little different. However, I would still like to share my successes. I began Cryotherapy a month ago. I am still amazed at how much it helps me heal and how it brings down the inflammation(pain)in my body. I began an amazing supplement product line. It is the highest quality I have ever come across (and I have tried many!)! I still eat non inflammatory meals. It is vital that I make my food from fresh live sources! I continue to meditate and feed my spirit. It can be hard when in severe pain and dealing with fatigue to stay in this solution. On those days or weeks I reach out to my inner circle of friends and ask for help. This was something that was very hard for me in the beginning. As I treat myself like I would treat my best friend, I have grown tremendously in inner peace, self love and compassion and I have something positive to give.
I know the challenges of experiencing pain day after day, but I must continue to train my mind to pay attention to my attitude, self talk, and to stay in gratitude! Today, my pain experience does NOT dictate my internal experience or what kind of day I am going to have!
If you are interested in finding out specific please feel free to contact me:
passitonremedies@gmail.com. BE AWESOME TO YOURSELF!