Pivot and change your story

The last ten days I woke up in excruciating pain. I thought about all the days my pain has taken away from me. So I made a decision on each of those days that today would not be another one. I pushed myself up out of bed. I changed my mindset from sadness to positivity. I took my dog out for a walk, said a prayer and came in and meditated using a new healing visualization meditation. I doubled my dose of my CBD tincture, and lied down on my Biomat for 20 minutes.I then soaked in the tub with one of my CBD bath bombs and extra epson salt. After about an hour I realized I was no longer in horrible pain. I called my friend and he drove me to the beach where I put my foot in the sand and got to watch the waves and breath the fresh air. Now, I am experience overflowing gratitude. 2 years ago my pain level was so bad I was not able to have this option. The reason why I am sharing this is because once you have lived years with chronic pain it can be extremely hard to switch gears and begin taking your life back. This can definitely be exhausting on days. Those days I allow myself to cry and pamper myself at home. I know chronic pain sucks! I hope this helps someone get up and make a great day. There are days we can pivot and create a new experience and there are days we must just accept. You can learn which days to get up and take back your life and be the best friend you’ve ever had.

Acceptance vs Fighting

One of the things I truly struggled with after my amputation was finding my balance.I had to learn that sometimes it was important to push myself and get up and “accomplish” somethings or embrace where my body was and allowing myself to be with my body and let it rest. What I learned was how important it is to push myself to learn how to become more self efficient, but also learn how to accept some limitations and listen to my body. There are days when thinking positive and challenging yourself turns into an expectation instead of a desire. This is when I need to stop, cry, and allow myself to be exactly where I am in that moment. It gets exhausting when your whole life is making appointments, seeing doctors, fighting for your insurance, and living with pain every day. This is when I knew that I must have things that I do that have nothing to do with “getting better”,healing…..Because it’s too draining to live with this consistent energy of “I want to heal’, i want to feel better”. I needed days to just enjoy, live, and be grateful of where I am now!
So don’t miss living because you are always trying to get somewhere that you are not. Be here now!

Inflammation cont…

Did you know that when your inflammation levels get higher, so does your risk for disease? Chronic inflammation is the misfiring of the immune system keeping your body in constant high alert. When our body is in high alert is also release cortisol which in turn creates more inflammation. This is why a quality CBD helps many different symptoms. Cbd can lower inflammation in the body, therefore supporting your body’s health.Studies are showing that chronic inflammation causes a lot of damage to the body and that most pain symptoms are because of inflammation. CBD helps the Endocannabinoid system help all the other systems communicate, therefore correcting any misfiring of messages. If you are suffering from pain or inflammation and would like to find a quality CBD feel free to message me.

Are you missing out?

One of the first classes they had you take in college in my day was Critical thinking. I find this funny. I want to challenge you today. Have you ever made a decision based on someone else’s experience or beliefs? Are you missing out? I want to give an example. I have this friend; when I was first introduced to him I was told by many a bunch of reasons I should not get to know him. Well. When it comes to people I have learned: HAVE YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE, and then decide. This person is now one of my best and dearest friends. He always shows up for me!
The day I realized that I was living life unsuccessfully, was the day I realized I did not know what I believed in. I literally sat down with pen and paper and went through my belief system to find out: I had NOT consciously chosen those beliefs and I did not even like them! Wow, powerful eye-opener! From then on I made a decision to have my own experience and make conscious choses. Next time you say no to something or make a judgement about something or someone, I want you to ask yourself: “Is this coming from my heart or is this some learned stuff that is not even mine!”
My life is shifting every day now for the better! I know amazing people, and I am involved with an amazing company that I would not have given the time of day to before.
I am healing more by using means and ways most conventional doctors would tell me are hogwash. Well, the proof is in the pudding! Whatever works and adds grace and exhilaration into my life, is what I will continue to chose!
Don’t miss out! Do your own research and your own thinking! Be your best friend!


On my healing journey I learned a lot about toxicity and detoxing the body. The less toxicity the better your body’s immune system and the better you feel! Do you know that American women put an average of 168 toxic chemical on their bodies a day? The average home contains 62 toxic chemicals.
Toxicity in the body can cause symptoms such as fatigue, irritability, lack of concentration, just to mention a few.
The first thing I did was detoxify my home by removing toxic cleaning supplies. Just doing that I felt better. Then I began detoxifying my diet! Buying organic food when possible and using healthy oils to cook. I get better and better at that still. It takes time to implement this. I began using non toxic creams, shampoos et… At the Chopra Center they would tell us:” If you wouldn’t eat it do not put it inside your body.”
Another huge area that many of us miss is emotional toxicity. It is very important that we metabolize and process our emotions! Exercise like yoga will help remove these toxic emotions out of our tissues!
And then lastly but just as important learning how to remove stress from our lives. We do have some control over that. We also can learn ways to metabolize stress so it doesn’t get to the point where is makes us sick. Did you know that stress alone can lower your immune system? When I was dealing with my cancer diagnosis one of the things I heard a lot was: “stress is a killer”.
This may all sound like a lot, but we can start somewhere. Bit by bit you will feel the results! It’s awesome!

Don’t Forget to Live

Living with chronic pain is draining. My life turned into dealing with doctor appointments after doctor appointments. Waking up with pain, going to bed with pain and the whole day was about how to manage my pain. What I realized through many years of this is that I was forgetting to live. I got so sick of waking up to just ” make it through another day”! This is when I realized I needed to find a reason to live again. I had to make a commitment to do something every week that had nothing to do with health or doctors. Whether it was reading a book for just reading a book or, Watching a funny movie or, going with a friend to drive along the beachside.
Or, is there anything I can do for another human being? Even if it is just to listen!
Yes, it is hard! your mind will tell you all the reasons you cannot do it, but I’m telling you you MUST!

Finding My Voice

I really wanted to share my process dealing with the doctors and medical professionals. I do not know what it was but in 2001 when this medical stuff all began doctors really intimidated me and mostly made me feel powerless. It took me years to learn how to take care of myself and ask for my needs in the hospital or doctor office environment. So many times I left an office feeling in a daze, confused, powerless, or angry. Or as soon as they left my hospital room all of my questions would come flooding back to me. There were so many years in which I felt as if what I was experiencing was of little concern to them.

I learned a few things:
1) Always take somebody with me whenever possible. 2) Write down all my questions on a piece of paper or on put them in my phone so I could look at it when they asked me :”Do you have any question”. 3)when they came into my hospital room at 5 am doing their rounds I recorded it in my phone. 4) the hardest one was speaking up no matter how the Dr talked to me or tried to intimidate me when speaking my truth.
5) And the most important of all: I WOULD LISTEN TO THEIR DIAGNOSIS, BUT NOT THEIR PROGNOSIS. In my many years now of listening to doctors try to tell me what was and was not possible, I have had the amazing opportunities to prove them WRONG. And that is where I am NOT powerless. I get to chose how I am going to live with their diagnosis and I get to chose to fight whether or not they tell me I will never walk again, or I can’t cure my liver, or there is no cure for this or that. Because every time I have chosen to fight and research other options I have ended winning!
Believe in yourself. Find your voice. Take your power back and use it all to heal. Do not allow your diagnosis to dictate your life, your heart, or your mind!