I can not count how many times I have asked myself, “what is the reason for so much suffering?”. I never really come up with the perfect answer, but I do know, when I look at all the years of my own suffering, I know I would not be the person I am, with this level of compassion if I had not suffered. I also believe I would not be as close to God/spirit that I am if my life had been an easy one. I wish this were not so, but the truth is I believe the heights of my joy and love are directly related to the depth of sorrow I have lived through. Could we have gratitude without loss? Faith without fear? I do not know.